IT WAS RAINING THIS MORNING and it was wonderful but then I realized that I can't really go outside and do anything when it's raining so I put on my sunshiney dress from rewind and I immediately felt better.
These last few months have been especially weird for me. I don't know. I feel sort of empty like something is missing and so I've been trying to be more creative and stuff. I deleted my tumblr a few weeks back and have been thrifting a lot and wearing more interesting outfits. Maybe I just feel so weird and nostalgic because these kids that I've grown up with and spent my whole life with have graduated and are going to college and I'm going to do that next year too and everything is going to change and nothing will ever be the same. It's weird, I feel very much like I'm in a movie from the 80s right now.
ANYWAYZ i've been thinking a lot about childhoods and nostalgia and the 1950s/60s/70s/80s and baseball and america and summers where you're a teenager and you're bored and all you can do is listen to the radio. Movies like The Sandlot and the virgin suicides, basically. And also Freaks and Geeks.
Since I've been striving to do more things away from the internet I've been writing more in my journal and also painting weird-ass pictures on notecards to go with lyrics of my favorite songs:
(I'm dumb)
Basically I've been having a great summer but I feel weird like I'm not in tune with everything; I'm more vague and disconnected than usual and I'm not going out and doing ~fun teen thingz~. I'm sort of stuck around my house a lot but I'm not really emotionally invested in anything at the moment which is weird because I always am.
WHATEVER.
I'll leave y'all with some simon and garfunkel (my 2 fave boyz)
simon and garfunkel - america
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