so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully pretty

(this is me being upset about having too much hair for this weather)
shirt: american apparel, shorts: thrifted, random tape measure, doc martenz

IT IS HOT. like, hot-hot. hotter than it was all summer. the sticky, gross kind of weather where you're glued to the few rooms in the house that actually have air conditioning boxes. since my brother left for college last weekend I had to move into his room because mine doesn't have AC. i'm gross and sweaty like 24/7 now. and what makes this even worse is that I have to go to SCHOOL and SUFFER. (actually my school is way over-air-conditioned and so it's freezing most of the time, but whatever).
But yeah, I started school on Monday and to be honest it's not as big of a deal as I was dreading. Maybe it's because I only have 4 classes (AP calculus, AP biology, chamber orchestra, and CIS writing!) and get to leave at 12:30. maybe it's because my expectations for this year are below zero and I literally don't give a damn about it anymore. either way, I'm enjoying my smooth transition from summer into school!! also: SENIOR YEAR! YEAH!!!!!!!! thank god.

I TOOK PICTURES OUT oN THE FRONT STOOP TODAY!!! it was fun. this is basically the most boring outfit but I was totally inspired by that one time when tavi wore a tape measure as a belt. she's perfect.
ALSO: I finally got my driver's license!!! my brother is letting me use his old pick-up truck! it's really ugly and huge but it's something!!! I drive it to school and I'm like the most badass bitch there ever was. her name is billie joe:

I know fall is coming really soon so what's better to send off summer than with a trip to the best place on earth, the STATE FAIR!! I took some really crummy pictures the other day:

everything at the fair is really retro and bright and summery and I LOVE IT.

to end this post I will leave you with one of my favorite songs of ALL TIME, The Lovecats by the Cure:

LOVE YOU GUYS xoxo

california pt. 1

I am having THE MOST FUN in Los Angeles. These are a few pictures I took so far. I'm coming home on Saturday so I've still got a few days to go! Tomorrow we will be driving to San Diego which I'm pretty thrilled about. Southern California is so beautiful and I now know what Best Coast was talking about when they wrote The Only Place.

However, I did get quite sick on Monday and stayed in bed all day. But I'm better now so everything is gr8.

YOU GUYS I'M FREAKING OUT I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. I ONLY HAVE LIKE 2 WEEKS OF SUMMER LEFT OH GOD I'M GOING TO CRY. WHOEVER SAID SUMMER WAS ENDLESS WAS REALLY NOT VERY SMART BECAUSE SUMMER IS LIKE LITERALLY THE SHORTEST SEASON OF ALL THE SEASONS. MORE LIKE ENDLESS WINTER. WINTER IS THE ONLY ENDLESS SEASON BECAUSE LITERALLY IT DRAGS ON FOR LIKE EVER OH MY GOD.

anyways, I will end this post with one of my favorite songs 4evr, Train In Vain by the Clash. It's good for driving around with the windows down.

all the world's a sunny day, oh yeah

IT WAS RAINING THIS MORNING and it was wonderful but then I realized that I can't really go outside and do anything when it's raining so I put on my sunshiney dress from rewind and I immediately felt better. 

These last few months have been especially weird for me. I don't know. I feel sort of empty like something is missing and so I've been trying to be more creative and stuff. I deleted my tumblr a few weeks back and have been thrifting a lot and wearing more interesting outfits. Maybe I just feel so weird and nostalgic because these kids that I've grown up with and spent my whole life with have graduated and are going to college and I'm going to do that next year too and everything is going to change and nothing will ever be the same. It's weird, I feel very much like I'm in a movie from the 80s right now.

ANYWAYZ i've been thinking a lot about childhoods and nostalgia and the 1950s/60s/70s/80s and baseball and america and summers where you're a teenager and you're bored and all you can do is listen to the radio. Movies like The Sandlot and the virgin suicides, basically. And also Freaks and Geeks.

 Since I've been striving to do more things away from the internet I've been writing more in my journal and also painting weird-ass pictures on notecards to go with lyrics of my favorite songs: 

(I'm dumb)

Basically I've been having a great summer but I feel weird like I'm not in tune with everything; I'm more vague and disconnected than usual and I'm not going out and doing ~fun teen thingz~. I'm sort of stuck around my house a lot but I'm not really emotionally invested in anything at the moment which is weird because I always am. 

WHATEVER.

I'll leave y'all with some simon and garfunkel (my 2 fave boyz)

simon and garfunkel - america

I Will

a tree grows in brooklyn t-shirt from urban outfitters, given shorts, and converse, y'all
(I loved A Tree Grows in Brooklyn  by Betty Smith and would recommend it to anyone!!)

Lately I've been listening to a lot of ~classic beatles~ tunez and I remember why everyone loves them so much, including myself. They're just timeless, fun rock and roll songs about love and happiness. Things just seem like they were simpler back then in the 60s and 70s. But that's probably not true and I'm just romanticizing different eras because I happen to like that kind of music better than today's music.
In other news, I've been thinking a lot about happiness and sadness and how you can be in a certain situation where you're completely pleased with how everything in your life is going but then you think about other people and how there's so much sadness and devastation in their lives. We all kind of live in little bubbles that separate us from anything beyond our world of communication. I keep forgetting how everyone else's lives are just as real as mine and equally as important and how when I pass someone on the street, they're probably going through problems similar or worse than my own. I really feel fortunate and grateful to have such a cushy and fun life and to be able to pursue my own interests and have all these awesome opportunities. I'm truly trying hard to put myself in other peoples' shoes and recognize that the world does not revolve around me and sometimes I can't get everything I want and yes, life is hard sometimes.

Today was so fun. I slept over at my best friend Peaches' house last night and we had icees and pizza and took a walk at 11:30 pm and it was hot out and we wore cute outfits and it was a really fun time.

aren't we cute?

Then today me and my older brother went to target and bought a bunch of junk food and watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and 'twas great! The rare times when we actually get along are actually so fun and he's awesome. even if we have completely different music tastes.

The heat is finally breaking and tomorrow should be just about perfect to take a walk around the lake.

Have some beatles-spiration: 

(I'm in love with them)

 

Please Please Me

tombstone blues

 IT'S TOO HOT TO WEAR MORE CLOTHES THAN THIS. I got the dress from Columbia and I made the flower crown. I was pretty inspired by combining black and colors and I love just being able to throw on this plain black comfy cool dress and then wear crazy shoes and a flower crown with it:

the fabulous tavi, of course

tumblr (or tumblah, as they say in britain, i suppose)

it's one of those long, hot, humid days of summer where all you can do is lay around and listen to bob dylan and think poetic thoughts about change and life and death and stuff. I guess I've come to realize that life is a certain amount of time that you get and you have to do something with it because really it could end at any time. wow that sounded depressing. I've also realized that change is inevitable and that it can sometimes be a good thing. For example, after listening to The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders From Mars 10 billion times, I guess listening to Highway 61 Revisited for a while couldn't hurt. 

a n y w a y,

CHECK OUT MY DANSKOS! they're iridescent and shiny and wooden and comfortable and wonderful. they put me well over 6 feet tall and I love it so much.

 

also check out the pins that I purchased at rewind the other day! 

 

~bob dylan, two david bowies, lou reed, the beatles, and the sex pistols~

Summer is so nice because I'll have days like today where I don't really do anything and I can just pursue whatever my heart desires and just have fun and be lazy and listen to records and take pictures and go to the lake and stuff. I never want summer to end.

enjoy some sparkly cacti: (tumblr)

suffragette city

THE WEATHER. SRSLY. 2 hot 4ever
I thrifted this babydoll dress the other day from rewind and I really really really really really really like it because it's COMFORTABLE and BREEZY and the only thing I want to wear, ever. plus it was like $15. plus it's polka-dotted.

i have too much hair for this world????!!...

ALSO:

I scored these fricken sweet mephisto sandals (normally like in the $200-250 range) for $28!!!! plus they're bejeweled and my size~

(excuse my ugly feet)

yeah

Some inspiration: